We're graduating tomorrow. 

It actually hasn't really hit me yet. But i know when it hits me, i'm going to be really really sad ): Although many can't wait to get out of ny i'm quite the opposite! I love ny and i don't ever want to leave )): We're going to have the grad ceremony tomorrow and after that, no more coming back for lessons anymore.

Today our chinese teacher finally opened up to us haha. She's actually really nice and funny. Sadly we only realise how nice they are when we're leaving ):

These fours years have i guess been the turning point in my life? I don't know hahah. but i changed so so so so much that it kinda scares me. There were many times i felt sad, many times i cried tears of joy. SYF, OM, I.D. 2010, i'll never forget those times. So very very very precious!

I'm going to sleep now or else i'll look really ugly tomorrow with the dark eye shadows.

It feels surreal.

 EXAMS ARE OVER.

And i haven't been to lj in ages?! These few months have been long and certainly painful. It was too draining i think i lost the stamina midway through the exams D: On a side note, being able to taste liberty is something i'll give up anything for :D Love the way how life can finally slow down...

We're graduating soon! in about 2 weeks time. How fast is that. It really really just seemed like yesterday that i was typing a goodbye post to sec three. And now one year has gone by :O 

I don't want to go to JC, something tells me it ain't going to be so good haha. 

Incoherent post. Shall go to sleep! Finally a time that i wouldn't have to set my alarm clock YESSSS! xD

 Gosh i haven't posted in ages...

Sec four is coming to an end! With the farewell from nymd and council, i'm finally starting to believe that i'll be leaving ny in about 3 months time. Farewells always feel like an emotional roller coaster ride, when you start to remember all the things you've done in the past four years...esp when juniors put up a montage. the memories... they just flood back. And it hit me so many times that wow, "i can't believe i actually went through all that!!" 

Md's farewell was lovelly ((: juniors made us feel like princesses...loved the montage like crazy. we watched I.D. 2010 too ((: All the memories came flooding back! Well must admit i haven't been thinking much about cca (although i really really do miss dancing a lot!), but when the montage was played everything just fell back into picture again. I wonder how long it's been since i've danced in the dance studio!

Council's farewell was nice too (: I will really really miss council! On a sidenote, why do i ALWAYS have such unglam pics!!! and juniors LOVE putting my unglam pics on montages -.- hahahah ohwells. 

Okay so now it's supposed to be mugging time. For the EOYs... but i just can't seem to find the right mood!! Hahhaa i need to find my motivation again...wherever it has flown too.

Just watched the video posted on Jo's lj, so touching!! teared like crazy hahaha. The video showed surprise reunion of families with their dad/son who were originally posted in Iraq for the war.. the little children omgosh.. I feel so lucky haha. 

Incoherent post.

Haven't posted about GYLC! Quite lazy to do it cos' there's just so so so so so much i want to say so so so so many things i want to record down, and i don't exactly know where to begin...

It was an awesome experience, knowing all the awesome people there! Got a taste of cultures from ALL over the world; i really felt like i've seen the world after going for GYLC haha. The people are the best part of it! I guess GYLC is an experience that you would have to make the best out of yourself. If you stay in your comfort zone, stick among the people you know, there's no way you would have enjoyed your experience there. Yes it was really intimidating, there were just so so many times i felt like i was the dumbest person there cos i was just clueless about all the history stuff and econs stuff they were talking about. I guess i struggled but i told myself to make the best out of it so yea, i guess i did! :D It started with a little discrimination against the asians... i guess we're just more reserved and less 'cool' looking? so the americans/ south africans don't exactly come up to you to ask for your name etc, you have to be the ones doing that so you get to know the people. They're actually really really nice people, just that you've got to be the one who initiates the self intro haha. Loved the people i met there, INDONESIA <333 and BUS 7 <333 gosh, the number of funny things we went through in the bus.... the breaking down, the lateness, the car accident! It was so funny but i loved how our bus took it in our stride ((: SYLVIA was in my bus!! yay haha. we kinda knew each other's friends after that hahaha. 

I miss all of them so so much. Especially my roommates! Even at night we're thrown to socialize and get to know peole. My roommates were from south africa, america and korea/brazil hahaah :D they are so so interesting i love every single one of them :D :D :D julia--kinda spoilt so we were packing her luggage for her! alisa--she's such a sweet girl she came to hug me to tell me she missed me cos she didn't like a new room mate haha. Liz-- i miss you for your 'hey monkey!' nickname thinggy hahahha :D pls come to singapore sooon. love the chats we had at night, so interesting ((: 

And oh yes i have to blog about the flight delay!! We went into the plane and they told us the flight to narita will be delayed cos of weather problems. after two hours, they said we ran out of fuel. After one hour, they said the fuel cap broke. after another hour they said the flight attendants had to change shift. so that took another hour and we only took off SIX HOURS AFTER. omgosh. we sat in the UNMOVING PLANE for 6 hours?!!! AND WE MISSED JUNE CAMP :( oh gosh. we were supposed to touch down and go for the last day of june camp straight but because of the stupid delay we had to stay a night a the japan hotel :( :( so we only reached the sat evening before sch started. gosh i guess the silver lining was just the fact that we got to know all the other singaporeans who went for gylc much better haha.

OKAY. Week three is going to be a CRAZY week. all the quizzes and timed assignments and all!! block test is coming soon and i better do well since CCA and all has stopped! 

BUT. (im going to watch the world cup tonight HAHA). it's once in 4 years! of course we have to watch it haha xD


Group Indonesia <3

Flight delayed :( Filling up forms at Narita airport!

Will be leaving for GYLC in about four hours time!!! And coming back only on the 26th, sat before school reopens :((( and we're immediately going for the last day of june camp haha, so crazy!

ANYWAY. i don't feel excited >< I think i'm more nervous about sitting on the plane and stuff. 24h in TOTAL! that's just MADNESS. taking one whole day to get there. And i have terrible air sickness :( going to taiwan for gcp last year (6h only) and i puked like twice. This time?! hais, shan't think about it! 

What's worse, our airplane seating isn't even together >< which means the four of us will be split up! and once we get there we'll be in different groups already so we won't get to see each other much either! Oh wells, i guess it's also good, forces us to socialise! The people going there are either JC or older! which makes us the youngest haha.

I shall go with an open mind! I shall pray really really reallly hard that i won't feel sick travelling. I dont think anyone knows how terrible it feels :( everyone keeps saying i psycho myself that's why i feel that way. HAIS. silent misery HAHAHA.  

haven't finished IH assignment and proj work! ><

GOODBYE for two weeks!!!
shi yan <3

Watched guzheng and strings yesterday, good job people :DD Watching them perform yesterday brought back memories of last saturday. The joy and tears! What was only one week ago now seem like one year ago haha. 

I miss syf! kinda weird but when the taxi passed UCC yesterday all the memories flooded in again. the fear and excitement and the elation. gosh.

I don't ever ever want to grow up. Just hope to remain as a teenager forever :/ all the adult politics will just drive me mad. I think the more someone ages, the more childish he/she becomes? Getting sensitive over the littlest things, saying stuff to spite one another. JIE WHEN WILL YOU COME HOME! :( Terribly need a mediator here! Such a pity you're only coming back when our hols end, so no time for shopping whatsoever. Really want to go shopping with you again! COME BACK SOONNNNN ><

sylvia, please come back soooon toooo! miss you guys tooo.

i'm feeling nolstagic and all. weird. 

I.D. 2010.
i dance. our identity.
52 dancers. one identity.

Dance night is over. Just like that. I have so many things to say, just that i really don't know where to start :/ As expected i cried like crazy just now haha. and made like ten thousand others cry too. omg so sorry :( Where should i begin. Let's start with the preparatory work.

Fundraising:
Bubble tea and cookies! That two weeks were really quite crazy. Rushing down to sell bubble tea, counting money EVERYDAY right after school. and going for cca after that. But it was so much fun. I remember there was one day when we had PE during recess so we didn't get to sell the bubble tea. So... we sold the bubble tea AFTER our PE (to those who also had PE during recess) hahaha! And there was actually a lot of business cos people would naturally want to drink bubble tea after PE haha.

Ticket sales:
Tickets were sold out like in 2 days? Which was quite crazy. We had people volunteering to sit on the steps LOL. Hahahah for ticket sales what i remember is Eunice going crazy trying to count all the tickets with the money and there was one day when we went CRAZY trying to count the money cos it didn't tally with the number of tickets sold! wanted to go down for council interviewing that day (MY ONLY CHANCE) but didn't get to cos we were all frantically trying to count money haha. Speaking bout that, i haven't done any council nominees interview yet :/ okay so basically ticket sales were really very good :D

Publicity:
Thank you Natalie's dad for sponsoring all the FLOOR STICKERS omgoodness! and all the posters and banners! Publicity wouldn't have been so good without it. Still remember the day when we had to reach school at 6.45am to prepare for morning publicity during assembly...in which subsequently ended up being CANCELLED cos of the rain :/ haha we were so disappointed! So we did it on another day but it wasn't as good an effect but still, doesn't matter much anyway!!

CCA practices and choreographing!!
Goodness. So stressful. Haha all i can remember from this is just STRESS, stress and MORE stress. About 3-4 weeks before production we already had cca about like 4 times a week. Hip hop and wed and thurs and cca on monday and friday. Goodness it's so crazy. On top of that we had to choreograph batch dance and bollywood and teach the sec ones the dance! It was really kinda crazy. All the deadlines on top of all our academics >< 

BLOCK TESTS. goodness. Block test began from week 5 and we still had to study on top of all our practices! This week, chem on tues, math on tues, bio on wed, physics on friday. and friday was the first day of dance night. It was seriously crazy. All of us were literally going mad. Bollywood was only fully done on the 1st may, monday, labour day holiday. The week before we were chionging like crazy, drawing formations in class (LOL ashley) watching bollywood videos everynight and ignoring unimportant homework. I remember listening to the music over and over again, trying to split the music into different sections. Goodness >< so CRAZY.

I guess all the stress can't exactly be expressed in words. The night before physics block test, half of our batch cried while studying. The sec threes too! Hello, it was the night before our dance night and we had rehearsals till like 7.45pm and we still had to study >< it's so crazy. i think i slept at 1am or something (though i think i still failed my physics TERRIBLY). This whole week + the week before, nothing but dance night kept appearing in our heads! the screwed up rehearsals, the undone choreography, the LACK OF PRACTICE! we were all going crazy and thinking we would never be able to put up the show. We imagined people complaining about how it isn't worth paying 12 bucks for our lousy performance LOL! Throughout the whole week, almost all of us slept in class LOL. (though i have this particular ability to sleep with my eyes open, a.k.a. space out and stone during lessons) haha. CCA increased to 5 times a week this week despite all the block tests but none of us were against it cos obviously we needed the practices >< All i can say is that we are all physically and mentally exhausted haha!

I still remember the day of labour day holiday, when everyone was probably mugging like mad at home, we had hiphop practices at RJC lol! OMG I MISS LI TYING LIKE CRAZY :( such a pity she couldn't come up stage today to receive flowers cos she was performing at RIJC's dance night lol. I LOVE LI TYING SHE'S SO NICE AND CUTE AND SWEET AHAH! so anyway, yes we had cca from like 9-1pm on monday in school, and then hiphop from like 3 to 5.45pm. And we had no venue even at RIJC so we were dancing in front of this weird mirror staring at our own silhouette reflections HAHA so funny. It was so HORRIBLY hot we were all soaked with sweat! but it was so fun! Guess it'd be the first and last time i'd step into RIJC or something! Their school is so huge and so cool! 

I'll miss a lot of things goodness. Sharing earphones with eunice in the bus on the way home from cca, listening to the music in the bus and half dancing (with our hands) hahaa. Playing the music repeatedly on buses so that we'd get used to the song and the very super fast beats. I'll also miss the night going to sogurt after cca! Eating cold and super super delicious yogurt icecream after a long and tiring day at cca. MOST OF ALL, i'll miss DANCING. ><

The morning practices for batchdance, 7.05 to 7.25am at the space outside classrooms at science block. The lunch practices everyday which began like more than one month before dance night, the cca practices almost everyday after school. There was this period i came to school only for cca LOL. I was so bored with all the lessons i just looked forward to CCA time. Goodness, i'm going to feel so empty (i haven't felt it yet. reality hasn't set in :/) Nothing to look forward to now! seriously nothing >< ahh goodness, and the worse thing is that we're now sec fours and we're going to leave soon. and i'm not sure if i'm even going to join MAD in hwachong cos i don't think i like the dance styles there >< getting weirder(?) the modern dance style there feels a little weird and too technical :/ AHHH I dunno! bottomline is that i'll miss NYMD so so so so so much!

I.D. 2010 7/8th May
WE REALLY BTFABTAO. We did it md-ers! We really did it. All the hardwork paid off. All the stress, the freaking out, the panicking, the feelings of being really screwed up for the whole production... we did it! WE SURVIVED!!! We managed to pull through dance night despite all the horrible block tests! <3 Thank you everyone who came to support us, we really really appreciate it! and thank you to all who gave me a hug/gave me flowers! I really really really appreciate it (: Although we made mistakes here and there esp on the second night, i guess it's just inevitable and we really tried our best to put up a good show. The teamwork when juniors came into our dressing room to help us change makeup and change costumes esp from batchdance to contemp item was just so awesome. I had natalie (THANKS NAT) removing all the safety pins and tying my hair, xinyi rubbing off the makeup and changing it to the brown one, yuxin holding the white tube and pants and helping me tie the sari very tightly after i removed my previous costume. Gosh the teamwork was really really awesome. It's the spirit and all that we had towards this performance, something that we worked so very hard for and in which we really wanted to do our best. it showed through every dancer, every single one of us. ((: I guess i can proudly say that every single one of us really put 100% into I.D. 2010 ((:

I'll miss dance. I really will. Dancing (ironically) is a form of de-stress. We can be freaking out like mad cos of dance night. But when it comes to the practices, i would forget about all the homework and block tests. all the school stress somehow just disappears((: I really love dancing and ohgosh i'm going to miss nymd so so so so much. This production pulled us all together! None of us really complained about having extra practices. Many went to the extent of going to someone's house function room to practice!!

Sec ones-----> AWESOME JOB :D Goodness you guys have tonnes of potential. And THANK YOU all for being so hardworking and listening to every single detail we tell you guys! All the 'diao-ing' (aka drilling) of the moves! You guys improved A LOT A LOT. Really did natalie proud hahaha. And you guys are so cute hahaha((: The big hug attack today was so touching haha (:

Sec threes----> our most most most most most awesome JUNIORS!!! omgoodness thank goodness we have you as our direct juniors. you guys seriously rock like crazy! Haoqing being the crazy ahma all the time and cheryl being the hiong woman who would sometimes break out into really disgusting and worm-ish sexy moves HAHA. ellen and haoqing and joy for taking bus home with eunice and i all the time! chermaine for being so helpful and focused all the time! joanne for being my wonderful partner! I'll miss the sec threes so much la :( but they're brimming with potential so i'm sure SYF will be PERFECT next year~~! whee (: Just hope that sec twos could improve more on laoshi's style!

Sec foursssss-----> BATCHHHHHHHHHHMATESSSS <3333333333333333333333333 Love you guys to the max max max max max max. Would not have done it without you guys really. You guys are the craziest and NOISIEST batchmates ever, but the FUNNEST and most PURE batch ahahha. wonder if you would get what i mean. Sorry for being naggy at times HAHA. i'm always being naggy~~ you guys can be so childish at time but that's what really makes our batch so special ahahha! you guys made me learn the importance of optimism despite all the crazy stress and all! wouldn't have done it without you guys! <3333 
Chermain: for being my beloved sistah and such an AWESOME md president!! nymd wouldn't have done it w/o you! 
Tiffany: for being so efficient and such an AWESOME md vice president!!!
Eunice: for being my AWESOME bus partner!!! always waiting to take 174 together. discussing timings for dances in the bus, listening to music, *****-ing hahaha.
Natalie: for being such an awesome contributor to both the MUSIC and MONTAGE :D :D you are so cooool :D :D thanks for helping me with the changing of costumes!
Ashley: for being such a crazily irritating classmate (AHAH) who (unfortunately) sits next to me during blocks and who always freaks out with me. and for holding a love-hate relationship with me HAHA :D
Shanping: my awesome partnerrrrrrrr :D :D :D  cum crazy classmate! and night-sms-er. this whole week we've been smsing each other at night encouraging each other as we mug for block tests lol! CHEMISTRYYY PARTNER :D 
Tammie: for being my awesome classmate cum batchmate tooooooooo :D and for always writing sweet notes and stuff for everyone of us!
Rosanne: for always being the critic in our batch so that every move will be nice!
Hui yun and sohia: for always being the quiet yet super hardworking ones in the batch, always helping us no matter what!

It's our last year in md, and i really don't want to go. I think our batch has seen the change most clearly, from mr raj to liu lao shi. In sec two we did hatful of stars, and this year, we had I.D. 2010. The change is so huge and i'm so proud of every single one of us for adapting to the new style and all ((:
As expected, many of us cried last night. I didn't cry till the very very end, when we were taking pictures in the dance studio. Argh. i started crying when i hugged chermaine cos i realised how much i would miss these very sweet batch of hardworking juniors. and then i cried more when i hugged my batchmates. I hugged laoshi! something that i wanted to do after dance night. Although you might not read this lao shi, but thank you so much for helping me discover my passion in dance(: I never really had the passion for dance in sec two but after you came i really really improved so much and started to experience the true meaning of dance! THANK YOU (:
 
After reading her message in the programme booklet after coming home last night, i realised it was all intentional to throw us to settle everything on our own. All the choreography, all the shopping for costumes, all the leading of our juniors etc etc. She really made us do everything on our own and many times we actually got quite irritated and angry. But i guess it's only this way that we feel such a great sense of satisfaction! We worked our guts out for this and it paid off (: All the shopping for costumes on weekends from like morning until 9pm, combing through bugis street for the cheapest costumes, and even shopping with laoshi at bugis street on one friday after cca LOL. so funny.

OKAY, i guess i should end, this is such a terribly long post. 
I LOVE NYMD <3333
I LOVE I.D. 2010 <3333
I LOVE DANCE <3

shiyan (:

Today marks the 10 days countdown to I.D. 2010!

I'm frankly very nervous :/ everything is only about half done? :/ which is very freaky cos time isn't really on our side with all the testssss >< 10 days! But i shall be optimistic :D We'll make it happen! (:

Although almost everyday's packed with practices and all, i know deep down that i really don't want this to end :/ After the 8th May we'll all be so EMPTY! 

Oh wells! shan't think to much. JIAYOU FOR BLOCKS EVERYONE :D

 This week's been crazily hectic. AND exhausting. NAPFA 2.4 + five stations + dance is no good combination :/ 

2.4 was okay but it was the first time i wanted to give up at the last round cos of my horrible stiches and empty stomach :/ i really wanted to finish the run in 13min!!! But at least i improved from last year, hit 13min 19 sec :D Five stations was okay! BUT STUPID INCLINE PULL UP the person was so strict!!! Anyhow, i'm so super glad is over :D

We're 21 days down to our production and we're so so SO not ready :/ There are still thousands of loose ends, the items and costumes D: But we'll make it through! We'll all survive blocks and at the same time make our production a blast! Well, we must. ((:

Yesterday was sad, we were supposed to do morning publicity and we were all in our costumes already when they said no assembly cos of the rain. HOW SAD IS THAT. and now even our publicity is held back! ANYWAY, i don't think it actually affects much haha(:

Fundraising! We've effectively raise 1000 dollars from the two days of fundraising. And to my surprise, i realised i actually do like to count money a lot~ haha. 

IH blocks is on MONDAY. and i only started today :/ Taking a break now from all the paragraphs of WORDS and just words. I better head back to work~ BYE WORLD :D and jiayou for blocks people!

GO NYMD, we can do it ~ <3

I"M REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY PISSED. I'M REALLY REALLY REEEEEEEEEALLLY PISSED I REALLY WISH I COULD KILL ALL THOSE PEOPLE NOW. never thought i could be that emotional and angry over something like this BUT SERIOUS, they really don't have much artistic sense. 

don't they have better taste!!!!!! what kind of rubbbbbbbish is that. omgoodness. 

btw this has got nothing to do with dance.