EMBRACE (:

NY TEE! haha

2010-01-02T09:50:14Z

Omgoodness i can't believe how lame i am. This was a random inspiration i had during our mini meeting at poolside just now LOL :D

Doing it on Photoshop just now just reminded me of SLC!!
CHUAN JO ELE I HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS HAHA :D

We should have a NY tee! What do you guys think? hahahah :D

2009 is nearing the end!

2009-12-31T15:37:23Z

2009 is ending in about an hours time. I can't exactly describe how i'm feeling now. Today i felt really confused, and i was just confused throughout the whole day. Must be the dreammm, the VERY CONFUSING dream i had the night before! It was so weird and so crazily mind boggling haha.

It's the last day (hour) of the year, but i don't feel anything. No burning aspirations, nothing much.. Just mundane. I can probably blame it on the fact that i'm _ _ _-ing haha, in which it caused me to embarrass myself just now at pn's house!!

Had a quite pathetic ot gathering with only 8 people just now haha. It was relaxing and just great company. (: though we did nothing much, but its still the company that feels really good ((: I miss the times!

And this brings me to my next point... what have i exactly done this year?

Invest
OM--crazzzzyy
Mother's Day
CSM
SYFFFF! <33 (and all the performances we went through this year! Orientation, Cluster 6, NY glitters, Inspire, Esperanza, iHope, FOA, etc etc etc!)
15SLC!
Sap seminar
Sap exhibition
MOL debates
National Day activity
Red White daze-zomg
Teachers day!
Aug camp
Presidential elections
Welcoming Mr Hu
Taiwan GCP!
Dec Camp

Well the three most major things i'll remember of the year 2009 is SYF, 15SLC!!, and OM zomg. I can't believe i actually survived these three major things :D All the stuff i committed myself to this year proved to be satisfying (: Not everything turned out well, but i learnt a lot. I had a lot a lot of fun, a lot a lot of laughter and a lot a lot of tears too haha (: I remember feeling stressed out, but i also remember the great sense of satisfaction i felt after everything ((: I survived! Though my academics went up and down hill throughout the year, i can proudly say that my msg is still quite surviving. :D

This year wasn't easy. But before i start thanking people, I want to apologize to my classmates whom i've completely neglected almost the entire year >< I promise to be a better classmate next year, and promise to spend more time with you guys. Thanks everyone who helped me throughout the year! Especially those who were willing to listen to me rant and complain(: you guys have been the greatest friends everr (: Would have pulled my hair out a long time ago had i not have you guys to turn to. Really, really, thank you so much (:

And to my parents, i must say i haven't exactly been very well behaved this year. Sorry for taking it out on you guys when i'm stressed, getting all grumpy and frustrated haha. PLUS, i went through my kinda rebellious period this year, so i must admit i've been a rather tough child hahaha. IT'LL GET BETTER :D

So what do I aim to do better next year!

1) WRITE WITH BETTER HANDWRITING! Omgoodness my handwriting is getting from bad to worse
2) MAKE TIME NO MATTER WHAT TO MUG! I must strive to get pro msg hahaha(:
3) SPEAK BETTER CHINESE, WRITE BETTER CHINESE, DO BETTER FOR CHINESE EXAMS!
4) I MUST WATCH TV too and not kill myself hahaha(:
5) Keep my room constantly neat
6) Get to know 303 better!
7) HAVE AN AWESOME DANCE NIGHT NO MATTER WHAT(: go nymd <3
8) Last but not least, sleep more and get rid of those eyebags ><

I actually think there's more but i can't remember. But whatever it is, may 2010 be a good year(: May everyone be happy and healthy. No matter what, health is very important yepp!

2010 wouldn't be an easy year, there are bound to be obstacles, ups and downs and emotional traumas (hahaha), but we'll pull through! With an optimistic and happy mind. I shall promise myself to do my best next year, GO 2010!

HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE EVERYONE, let's welcome 2010 with open arms(:

Love,
shiyan(:

p.s. STAY COOL and STRONG my (dear) sisterrr! (:

burningzest @ 2009-12-30T00:44:00

2009-12-29T16:43:26Z

It's been a while since i last posted! Not that i didn't have the time, just didn't feel like it!

Council camp haha.

SCARY, TRAUMATISING, but satisfying? i can't explain it haha. I'm glad its over but at the same time i'm glad that we actually went through it! Was a really good experience haha.

I just got back from Malaysia! After four days of being out-of-touch from the real world, i have 60 new emails -.- Oh gosh, that's the only thing i hate after holidays. When reality sets in and you'd just have to get cracking again!

Christmas party was quite fun, had about 35 people in my house goodness D: met like relatives from all over the world, malaysia, america, england. I realise my siblings and i have been entertaining people since the age of four so yes, i can proudly say that i have finally gotten used to the large gatherings! MERRY BELATED XMAS EVERYONE <3

New year's coming, SCHOOL'S STARTING. i don't want it to start. But i know we'd all just have to face it yepp. I'm sure 2010 will be full of surprises, ups and downs, and new experiences that may be good/bad. But we'll all endure it won't we? We'll all just stay strong and happy and optimistic! :D It's gonna be a MUGGER year hahaha, i MUST make time to study i don't care! haha(:

My cousins have been here since the 18th and they're leaving on the 2nd jan :( They're so nice and funny haha! I really hope i'll be able to pack up my entire room to prepare for the next year. But i can't do it now, just have to wait first haha :D

OKAY, that's all for now, i hope i'll feel like posting before 2010 really comes!

TAKE CARE people, every single soul out there! Stay happy, stay strong and SMILE :D

PRE COUNCIL CAMP BUTTERFLIES >

2009-12-20T14:33:04Z

COUNCIL CAMP!!!!

THE LONG AWAITED TIME HAS COME... all the anxiety, anticipation is finally going to end. I'm frankly very very very VERY nervous but AH WELLS, i'd just have to face it.

Have been busy entertaining my counsins from london and america (LOL), the different accents are SO COOL. singlish really sounds horrible!! So yes, currently i feel VERY ill prepared for camp cause i've been eating/going out too much! might be a good thing, don't think too much (:

GO WITH AN OPEN MIND...
I'm sure we'll all survive, and it'll be a memorable camp! OUR LAST CAMP :'(
okayokay butterflies would you please stop flying about in my tummy? Just go away and let me sleep! :D

JIAYOU SHIYAN
JIAYOU COUNCIL
I'm sure we'll make it through.

"with every step, we climb a mountain higher"
SHIYAN (:

p.s. Happy birthday brother (in advance). i'm sorry i'll miss half of your birthday this year! (i missed my sis' one last year cause of council camp too hahaha)

burningzest @ 2009-12-16T01:37:00

2009-12-15T17:37:52Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE :D

May you appreciate our (my) gift and be as retarded as ever hahaha (: you're seriously, SUPER retarded. Mug hard in london and don't forget to do something for me on my birthday too (although you won't be here, but surprises are welcome ^^) Hoho.

To huihan who is overseas, i wanted to post HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you (yesterday) too! But i was lazy haha xP so anyway, happy birthday monkey/crabby friend :D

Birthdays are such joyous occasions :D I realise i love giving people stuff, that's if if i can find something nice! I still owe batchmates TONNES of presents D: oh wells.

HELLO school tomorrow again~ haha

<3 shiyan

burningzest @ 2009-12-11T21:57:00

2009-12-11T13:58:25Z

Before i lose the feeling of posting... I just wanna say,

BODY WORLDS is so damn cool. Yes. That's all i can say. It's so friggin amazing how they do the what do you call it again? (gosh i forgot zz) plasticine something. AH freak i have such lousy memory. Gah i just know they use gas heat and light! hahaha. The blood vessels, the muscles, the EYEBALLS (hi.xD) the nervous system, the digestive system, the heart, the BRAIN. goodness everything was just so awesome!! Our body is indeed a marvelous art piece... Not to mention the gigantic HORSE and SQIUID and GIRAFFE! totally amazing la haha (: And yes, we learnt some interesting new things LOL: apparently maintaining an active sex life as you grow old can lengthen your life by about 8years!! so interesting right. and yeahhh stress and lack of sleep will cause ageinggggggg. HAISH!!

After wasting a lot a lot of time lol, finally ate dinner! Then had to make two round to the toilet -.- and we FINALLY got into the theatre. Yay.

NEW MOON. Hmmm i wouldn't say it's very very nice. It was OKAY. Maybe because ive read the book and stuff? Don't know! Was kinda boring cause i knew the story already. But still, the animation was quite cool(: Sat for so long until my butt hurt like crap! haha.

Now, i officially annouce that:

I HAVE BURNT A HUGE HOLE IN MY POCKET >:(

but AH WELLs, i had fun :D and i haven't had fun much the whole year so!! I shall just start saving money again, from now onwards yeahh. (join me in my quest (: )

burningzest @ 2009-12-09T22:14:00

2009-12-09T14:14:30Z

Haven't felt like posting in very longgg! no mood i guess!
Anyway, my life after coming back from taiwan has just been about cca, council, nyaa at red cross and holiday homework... We have finally decided on our concert's name! after SO SO SO much deliberation (poor chermain!) haha. So today was CCA and precamp cheering. Shan't say much about it, it was just, VERY TIRING... and i'm super tired now haha. Sorry for making you skip lunch today chermain! Shouldn't have set it so early lol. I came back home and gobbled what, 2 portions of dinner?! Urgh i'm such a gross pig!!
I'm very scared for camp >:( very very >< hmphhh. but oh wells, shall just go with an open mind yea! things to look forward to!

1) I"M FINALLY GOING OUT TOMORROW to watch 2012!
2) I'M GONNA WATCH NEW MOON AFT CCA ON FRIDAY :D
3) CHRISTMAS PARTY AT RED CROSS HOME FOR THE DISABLED (havent had the 'feel' to post about this! have been to rchd many times since i've come back from taiwan haha. and everytime we go, it's just SO heartwrenching >:( )
4) MY SISTER'S COMING HOME !! :D
5) COUSINS COMING FROM LONDON, XMAS PARTY WITH ABOUT 30 PPLE COMING?! :D
6) AFT COUNCIL CAMP I'M GOING FOR A SHORT 3 day HOLIDAY TO MALAYSIA. like with my sis too haha :D

okay that's it for now lol. i really want to sleep!

<3 shiyan

burningzest @ 2009-11-19T08:35:00

2009-11-19T00:36:50Z

HELLO WORLD!!

Finally get the chance to use the computer. Am currently in the Fudan high school's library! Life's been good and relaxing here, have been eating GOOD FOOD and meeting realyl really really nice Taiwan buddies! They are really so so awesome i really don't want to leave today )): The only minus point is that their school hours are from 8am to 8pm. So freaky isn't it. Wouldn't survive if i were to study here either haha.

Coming to Taiwan with friends is certainly a really good experience! We're given almost complete freedom by the teachers, getting free time to walk around areas we're totally foreign with. Have gotten closer to my classmates (i hope!). Especially Natalie, (but she's emigrating next year)): )Anyhow, i shall treasure the fun and relaxed life here. Am not looking forward to going to singapore and taking the horrible plane and puking all over again ):

OKAY, i shall go now. Hope everyone's having fun in the various places theyve gone for GCP, and to those who are staying in Singapore, do try to have fun at work! (HAHA)

miss me,
shiyan :D

Completely honoured (:

2009-11-13T08:00:45Z

HELLO. So the day finally came. And i've lost all my excited feelings so i'm not going to blog about it as excitedly as my smses when it just ended lol :D

anyway, guess WHO i'm talking about (: Watch the news people, read the newspapers! Felt really really really honoured today. My hand is super precious now, didn't want to wash it, but i had to bathe anyway o.o

Well the scene was really dramatic haha. It's really like in the tv shows when all the media and paparazzi come to push you aside and nudge you just to get good pictures -.- it was kinda funny!! And really, a once in a lifetime experience! People were standing on the overhead bridge desperately trying to get a good view lol. I'm very proud of zhiting and rachael. They really just did their parts flawlessly goodness. And alicia is really hilarious haha ((: very amusing xD All in all, I swear I'll never forget this day, never ever. And if i ever have children i'm going to boast about this haha ((:

Taiwan in about 32h. I don't feel excited suddenly i have no idea why! Maybe all my excitement went down the drain after this morning's experience. HAHA. I've packed! FINALLY. after slacking around for 2h after i got home,my self discipline part of me kicked in and i completed packing in 1h LOL. (self discipline HINT HINT!! ahem, haha) I hope i don't forget anything, or it shall be such a pain. And i really hope i'll not be SO LUCKY (sarcasm intended) as to see RED once i go there. i really think it'll happen but, i pray that it'll not!

Bon voyage to me, i hope i''ll not puke on the plane!! ))): And feeling sick on the plane really sucks, esp when i don't have my mum to help me like distract me from my suffering by like letting me lie on her lap! URGH howwww. I'm pretty scared of getting onto the plane. Hope i get strong motion sickness pills and other stuff that will kick motion sickness away! To Weimin, i know you empathise! But you must be overseas in shanghai already, so JIAYOU <3

I'm going to spend the rest of the day watching tv (i've been doing so since 12 while packing) lol. I think i'll defintely be home sick on the first night in taiwan but subsequently i bet i won't even want to come home heehee. Anyhow, happy holidays everyone, and don't miss me :D I'll be back on the 29th!

Love,
shiyan <3

tomorrow's the day!

2009-11-12T10:39:15Z

Okay tomorrow's the day i've been waiting for since school ended. I swear i'm going to keep my eyes WIDE OPEN tomorrow and erm stare as hard as i can and remember every second if possible. I sound vaguely pervertic, oh well xD

I have spoken chiense everyday of this week. In proper form. Erm, actually in very expressive form. HAHA. goodness gracious, the way we prepare is so scary haha. But it's been fun slacking around in school too, stoning in the air con heritage room and all (: And yes, i have gotten to know this interesting person these four days i've spent in school. HAHA. she's so interesting that i just can't describe it haha. And! i just realised, i have accepted numerous people as my lj friend without even knowing who they are LOL xD but don't get me wrong, not that i don't agree to being your lj friend HAHA, i just really didn't know! (If you're reading this, i'm sure you know what i've been talking about haha)

It feels a litle surreal that i'd be leaving for Taiwan on Saturday. Maybe all that's been on my mind is this major thing tomorrow. I haven't exactly packed, and i really really don't feel like doing so o.o never liked packing, or worse, UNPACKING zzz. I hope taiwan will be FUN, i'm 80% sure it will be xD Today i bought 5 Nanyang Bears to give my buddies in Taiwan, they are SO LOVELY ((:

Here's some pics from logs outing! <3

you know, i actually look TALL here xD who thinks so? :D Whee i love this pic. Poor chuan dropped her camera!

HAHA we were hiding from the guys lol. Taken using my dad's awesome camera!!

PSG appreciation dinner! Had a kids table and zihighed like crazy. Embarrassed myself in front of p, vp, deans and teachers LOL.

That's it for now. LIWEN I WANT THE PICS FROM CLASS OUTING!!

better go pack soooon,
shiyan <3

burningzest @ 2009-11-11T00:09:00

2009-11-10T16:13:14Z

Oh my why am i not sleeping when almost three teachers told me specifically to sleep early tonight and all the subsequent nights till before friday?!

Just want to do a quick post--

Sat was CLASS PARTY, oh it was SO DAMN FUN goodness. one of the FUNNEST gatherings EVER <33 i want more stuff like this so i can get more pictures with the class! (did i mention i totally don't have single picture with any classmates in SCHOOL UNIFORM?! oh man so sad ): i'm just always NOT THERE)

Monday
CCA, dragged out of CCA, movie "My Girlfriend is an Agent" with tammie and shanping. FUNNNNY SHOW!!! and hahah i think we laughed too loud.
At night- did gcp stuff from like 8 to 12?! omgoodness i have quite a pathetic life haha.

Today
TUITION FOR THREE AND A HALF HOURS. RUSHED in a taxi to school. Left around 4 plus. Went to watch movie "Coraline" with LOGGGIESSSS :D spammed pictures (at least the girls) and had a great dinner. Outings with loggies are never boring, yay(:

Tomorrow.
HAve to be in school by 730. which reminds me, why am i not sleeping?! okay gdnighte.

URGH i'm a little frustrated today oh welllll.

It's the last day of being a sec 3

2009-11-06T15:37:51Z

IT'S OVER. the long awaited time has come! I HAVE NOW OFFICIALLY HALF THE LOAD TAKEN OFF MY BACK THANK GOODNESS. (: Today's the last day being a sec 3, and it really didn't feel like it. Or rather, i didn't even have time to think about these kinda stuff. It was a really really really crazy day, and i'd just thought i should blog/reflect tonight before all the feelings seep away.. i wonder if i can finish this before 12am haha(:

TODAY:

First began with having to wake up at 5.30am (half an hour earlier than usual!) cause my dad's overseas (yes, he's always overseas at the wrong timeee ><) haha. Okay, so took the bus, met weimin on 151 opp kap and yes got to school earlier than 7 thankfully. Met the 'singers' and the 'actors' and then we rehearsed. THANK GOODNESS rehearsal went well and wasn't as screwed up as the day before. Yup, i must think Min Hui of AV omgosh, she's so poor thing ): every morn have to come for our rehearsals! okay so yes, rehearsals went well then had to rush to help rachael do the friday prize giving duty stuff. we are really shorthanded, really really. anywayyy yes, chermain was there to help too! (:

Then, P.E. reps had to (unfortunately) clean the pe storeroom. So, having coughed like crazy the past night, i coughed even more when inhaled all the dust in the room lol. anyway yes we did bring out all the p.e. equipment and manually counted them lol. made a new friend HAHA. felt super odd cause i was the only one from a performing arts cca as p.e rep? yes lol.

Went back to class (: Received report book. Was really touched cause classmates accounted for my departure and helped me out with a lot of things haha. they've become so accustomed to my sudden disappearings ): anyway! report book~ it was probably the only time i felt like my sec three year was finally ending.

Level closure. not very significant cause they overran the sec two's level closure so ours had to be rushed so that the sec fours could have more time. Not bad though, i love our Level Directorrrrrrrrrrr <3

Begins the craziest part of the day--went to the hall to meet singers. Had to account for missing sec fours cause of level closure. Then had to practice speech with ms teng. I swear almost 20 people were calling and asking me what they should be doing. there was this period i really wanted to just sit on the floor and give up hahahaa. but duh i didn't, how could i lol. Oh! Thanks for the pipagao sweets ms teng ((: Really appreciate it! and! for reminding me to drink water :') so after all the freaking out haha the programme started. yep so i was pretty much going nuts backstage and it was certainly a traumatising but a good experience up there delivering a speech in front of the school D: not the best i could do but i tried! (: Then it was the nysl item. omgosh i'm so glad it went well! Thanks Le Ting and ZhiTing for singing so nicely with the harmony at the end and all AND xiaoen, abigail and all the other actors and singers for doing such a great job! :D really love you guysss for volunteering and all (; Yep skipping all the traumatising encounters when i kept having to hear my name over and over again in weird forms HAHA, everything finally ended (:

Then i got an sms from ms teng to meet her, haha and lame me thought i had something to do again (: But nope! turned out mdmlee and msteng were there to ask me if i was okay and if i could turn up for the grad cere. They are super super super nice and caring omg i felt so touched (: [a little sidetrack--many other teachers asked me if i was okay too! hahaha apparently almost the whole comm of the sec four grad cere knew i was sick LOL? so yea, thanks all teachers for asking, you guys are realyl really caringg :') Esp lin wan zhen lao shi! Who only just got to know me because of the taiwan gcp trip--her smses to me are really so thoughtful-i just received another just now! (: All in all i feel super loved, and really thank youuu teachers]

Sidetrack again--thanks for all the smses of concern from friends/classmates as well! :D I think i received almost 20 yest from many people! Thank youuu all reallly. <3 And OT! sorry i couldn't go yest. Thanks for the malaysia gifts BEARR, so thoughtful of guys to buy us, girls, gifts haha(:

Okay then grad cere! The blazer was really really hot. And i was really really really bored backstage omgoodness. Hahaha me and tessa were like "this is the test of our endurance" AND "self entertainment". it's like your only window is between the backstage curtains? and you can do nothing but listen to the stuff going on. haha. but me and tessa entertained ourselves well. talking about lame stuff, lame lame lame stuff. Glad to be working with her more next yearr yeaa :D Okay so basically i had to appear like another billion times or something before finally i didn't need to anymore haha (: Good experience again i guess.

After everything ended, went to steal food hoho xD from the aweomse caterers. then decided to head home and then something funny happened LOL. yes. then erm i decided i didn't want to take sally's father's car home so yes, i forced her to take the bus with me (even though i had almost a thousand things in to carry). On the bus we were practically zihighing like nobody's business. i was really happy that i've gotten over this week and she was just high about something else totally stupid and lame and omg i still can't believe it lol. Okay that sums my day. OH no that wasn't the end.

Came home my TUITION teachers called -.- to arrange tuition for the lesson that i've missed. she's leaving soon so she's going to have to wrap up lessons >< SO. i'm going to have tuition from 9-12,30 on tues? crazy but urgh i just want to get it over so that i don't have to have tuition on another day. yep.

Kay that's it. My reflections will be in the next post! This post is far TOO Long. goodness (: I wonder if anyone read till here. oh wells,

shiyan<3

burningzest @ 2009-11-05T16:14:00

2009-11-05T08:34:15Z

Helloo.

Today was one of the rare days i decided to leave for home before school ended. Slept like a pig haha. But couldn't sleep too well cause there were also !@#$$%$$@!##$% things on my mind :s

Before perf we reheased about twice and omg i swear i almost puked >< thankfully i only felt sick AFTER rehearsing/performing and not during, if not it'll be so terrible. Experience on stage was scaryyy, and i was really dancing for my life lol. Never thought that it will be so torturous to dance while you're sick.

Anyhow, it's over and i'm glad (:

I'm going to miss the drama fest finals today! and OT is goinggg!! like 20+ OT pple omg )): )): )): why do i always miss the best things!!! and i bought a ticket already, which is going to gary haha. SO SAD LAH ):

I currently feel very very lousy about something. very very lousyyyy hais. but nothing can be done to it already, just hope that they'll understand cause we really really really tried our best given just one night to complete it :/

Tomorrow's the last day of school. Although i have been wishing for school to end quicker, now i somehow don't want it to end. Reflections will come tomorrow! This year has been a roller coaster ride, UPs and DOWNs. I actually regret quite a lot of things, like despite the last day of school being tomorrow, i have only got much closer to 1/4 of my class? which is a very sad thing, but i'm glad i still have one more year to try to get closer to them (: i had better treasure that one yearrr! putting myself into the shoes of the secfours this year, i really can't imagine myself graduating and leaving nanyang. it's just so scary!

Regrets aside, this year has been rather (if not very) accomplishing too. I think i stretched myself in almost every way it can go, and right now i can't wait to give myself a break. emotional roller coasters, stress roller coasters, expectations roller coasters, friendship roller coasters, academic roller coasters, so on and so forth. But afterall, everything turned out okay and i'm quite proud of myself. I have got to know many people, many people who have helped me along the way and who have given me all the support (: I'll elaborate more when i do reflections tomorrow or something :D

Right now, i just hope everything goes well tomorrow!

burningzest @ 2009-11-04T18:42:00

2009-11-04T10:47:00Z

Cheng xia qu!!

Two more days to go, you can do it.

With an inflamed throat and a throbbing head, i will and MUST live through the next two days. As much as wish i could forsake and escape the things which are thrown at me, i will take it in my stride! Not like i'm given a choice haha. but, OH WELL.

GAMBATE.

burningzest @ 2009-11-02T22:32:00

2009-11-02T14:35:48Z

I'm really really really contented with my overall results (: Considering all that i've done this year, it's amazing how my msg is lower than last year's hahaha :D

I MANAGED TO PULL LA AND CHINESE UP OMG I"M SO HAPPY.

So basically today was a happy day ^^, although cca was a killer and now my throat's dying and my head's spinning like crazzy. i want to sleeep now ):

burningzest @ 2009-11-01T17:58:00

2009-11-01T10:07:34Z

Hello.

my weekend has been terribly boring. i didn't do anything except for going out for dinner on sat night and today going to westmall for a short while to return a lib book and eat ice cream LOL. i spent my saturday finishing BOF :D it's super super super nice (; and super super super sweeeet! haha. and oh i spent my friday finishing the book "Mr. Perfect" (which was so super SICK but very thrilling). Didn't really play/shop or do much but it feels good to slack around haha.

i'm currently bored because i have no inspiration whatsoever for that speech i'm supposed to write. AND i spent my morning calling people to beg them to make some time out of their busy schedules for the item haha. I'm being so incoherent now but urghhh i don't care lol.

ANYWAY. i'm totally not looking forward to this week.

1. There's FOA (i'm nervous :S)
2. There's the speech (more nervous)
3. There's the item (i'm scared it won't work out)
4. I'm busy everyday and there's no other time to slack D: (monday cca, tues foa rehearsal, wed foa, thurs foa, friday farewell + sec four grad night)
5. There's boring post exam stuff (haha but it cannot be compared to the sec fours still having chinese lessons xD)

I really really really can't wait for school to endddddddddd.

BUT! i shall try hard to make the best out of this busy and nerve-wreaking week. and STAY OPTIMISTIC yes. JIAYOU.

shiyan (:

p.s. NYNY on friday after school with chermain nat and shan was NICE :D (same people againnnn haha)

our first trip there :D

last friday! :D

burningzest @ 2009-10-28T18:23:00

2009-10-28T10:38:16Z

Okay so we've received 5/7 of our results. HMM. i think i did OKAY, but it could have been much much much much better :/ nevertheless! i should still be contented (:

LA
didn't exactly fail like i expected too. my unseen and compo was SHOCKING--very unexpected. failed compre TERRIBLY though lol.

CL
HAH. can you believe it. i actually did so much better than expected (: hopefully it'll pull up my B4 to a B3 or A2 haha. i was stunned when i saw my paper lol

Chem
if it hadn't been for the TEN marks of careless mistakes i would have done so so so so so much better ):

Physics
similarly, "if it hadn't been for the TEN marks of careless mistakes, i would have done so so so so so so much better ): ):".

Bio
was a disappointment. didn't do too badly cause i figured the whole level standard was really quite low. but still, considering how hard i mugged for it, no reason to have lost so many marks hmm

Tomorrow's math and ih. i think i'll faint before getting back my math or something. i really think i should mentally prepare myself first if not i'll get a heart attack or something haha. but anyhow, i won't cry over spilt milk! :D

right now i think i need to think very carefully of what i want to take up next year >< there are so many tempting things to take up and i'm not sure if i should. next year should be dedicated to trying hard to get a perfect msg of ONE, butttt i think i might regret if i just not take up anything extra. I DON'T KNOW! haish.

okay i think i should go now. i can't believe i haven't finished my korean drama -.- everyday i would yearn to watch but i'm just caught up with every other thing and i can't seem to relax and watch it properly haha. but it's been my only motivation sooooooo, i hope it doesn't end too hahaha(:

this is a rather incoherent post -.- well, almost all my posts are incoherent anyway o.o i have CHINESE COMPO TO WRITE AS TUITION HOMEWORK OMGOODNESS ): can i not do ittttttttt, PLEASEE :'(

p.s. i watched a ballet concert at esplanade yesterday. Paloma Herrera!! omgoodness they were all so so so so good. and there were like two contempt-ballet pieces and it was SO SO SO darn awesome omgosh. the choreography was jaw dropping.xD i wish i could have such technique lol

burningzest @ 2009-10-26T21:49:00

2009-10-26T13:56:06Z

I'm very troubled. ):

I don't know why it's bothering me so much but today's one of the days i felt like i was the greatest _ _ _ _ _ on earth. Though i clearly know that it isn't my fault at all but still, it made me feel so damn lousy ><

My emotions are running wild AGAIN. Sometimes i really don't understand why all the bad things like to come on the same day. Somehow i always meet with stuff thrown to me all at once. Emotional trauma in the morn, emotional trauma in the afternoon, emotional trauma at night. URGH.

Life's been good, but there's a price to pay with everything you're given.
Have you ever felt like running away when things are suddenly thrown at you? I have...

but you know i won't.

GO SHIYAN. (:

我知道，我又想太多了。

p.s. happy birthday sistah (again), and natalieee--tomorrow! (one of my sweetest batchmates hahaha(:)
p.p.s i'll try very hard not to cry over spilt milk tomorrow hmmmm.
p.p.p.s. i'm really looking forward to watching the ballet perf at esplanade tomorrow xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUZ (:

2009-10-22T09:20:39Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON :D

(p.s. don't be mistaken, he's my cousin lol)

May you have an awesome 'HANDSOME sixteen', and get a girlfriend soon~ hopefully not a nerdy one HAHA :D I'm sure you won't read this but jiayou with whatever you're doing and keeep fightttinggg!

Btw, sleeping at four yesterday mugging a DRAMA, is just SO COOL ^^ hoho. i'm really an extremist omgoodness, save me~ Went to my counsin's hosue just now, and was marking her primary two math and english practice papers, gosh it's so darn easy i wish i could turn the clock back a return to primary school and score full marks once again -.- hais ): it's quite fun being a tuition teacher i think! and i must say i think i'm quite a good teacher (ego~~). my very very stubborn, slack BUT SMART primary two cousin actually listened to me when i told her to study! I made her erm tell me how long she intends to slack (and she actually gave herself a 45min break -.-) and i told her i trust her that after her break she will study. And gosh did she start studying once the time really came! My life seems to revolve around people who are close to me and who are slack (hints hints hintssss). so funny (:

CCA tomorrow, and i'm somewhat quite nervous actually. about going back and trying DESPERATELY to recall the steps. and there'll be no more sec fours omg )): HOWWW. ohwell i better sort out treasury matters tonight so i can pay everyone back and erm continue chasing for the money that my jnrs and batchmates owe me lol. :D

OKAY, i'm pretty bored now. CAN'T WAIT FOR THE WEEKENDS!

<3shiyan

If you could see me now...

2009-10-21T16:01:26Z

Finished a book today, first time in months i must say. It's titled "If You Could See Me Now", by Cecelia Aherns and it's really sweet and touching. As i said, i'm a sucker for stories that portray a woman strong on the outside but weak on the inside, and who eventually falls in love haha. This story isn't ordinary i must say. somewhat special. It was completely opposite from what i predicted the outline to be when i first saw the title. Well it's a story emphasizing on believing. On Making Believe. Well it seriously did make me think about my stand towards life. And i think the author's really awesome cause she successfully portrayed her real theme through this really simple story outline.

Why are adults so skeptical towards things in life?

Well I'll be an adult one day, and it makes me scared to see how we from young innocent kids turn into adults who think they know everything when in actual fact, they're just living in their own world of self denial. Maybe we should really believe the little children when they have imaginary friends. What's so difficult about believing? One day, we should really just stop in our tracks of our 'so called' lives, stop to see the world as it really is, and we'll realise that there's more to things than just studying and working like some unthinking robots. A mess of paint on a wall could look like something, a bush could hide secrets, the wind might be hinting something. Make believe.

This book opened a fourth dimension for me, i must say. i never really saw things in this way. never really thought that such things could, and MIGHT exist, as long as we believe. Stop being so skeptical, and for once, just believe in the stupidest and most childish things. Maybe, that's life.

but f.y.i, i currently love life now like crazy. it rocks to be able to do anything we want. ((:

PLAY HARD PEOPLE! (: it's time to cee-leee--bbrraa--tteee!

<3shiyan

LIBERATION! (:

2009-10-20T09:52:33Z

Exams are OVER.

It seems like the title of my post on the last day of exams is always the same. for the past three years? yep i think so haha(:
Math paper. URGH. shall not talk much about it. my math will DIE this year but i'll pull it up next year i promise haha :D

Sooo! After school, went with shermaine weimin shanping and claudia to watch 'Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs" ! :D seriously it's been MONTHS since i last watched movie. the show was quite good. but i never expected it to be food disaster at all haha. i thought it''ll make me go hungry after watching it, but it turned out the opposite. was laughing like crazy with shermaine after the move, about the CHICKEN. HAHAHAH :D omg it's so so so so funny and uncannnnny.

then! had to rush back to attend a funeral. was only told this morn so yepp couldn't go to IKEA with them to eat meatballs hahah(: oh well! but had a pretty good time talking to mr low, he is really funny haha(:

And now, im back home! thought i would be bursting to do a 1000000 and one things but it seems like i have nothign to do now. It's really human nature, as ashley claims, that humans only yearn for things when we don't have it! but nonetheless, i still feel a 1000 times 'free-er' haha.

And what are my plans for the next few days? I'm not sure. let's see how things go, shall we?(:

--Off to ballet later! (: --

shiyan

burningzest @ 2009-10-17T18:13:00

2009-10-17T10:16:22Z

Dream big, you'll go far (:

HELLO

2009-10-16T07:54:55Z

EXAMS ARE ALMOST OVER :D

And guess where i am now hahahah :D I'm at LIWEN's house now hahahaha (: how random is that. was on my home today then was like telling her i want to know where she lives since it's like almost only 5min from my house... SOOO. I'm here now!! and she's really AWESOME (she just changed that -.-) hahahah:D

So, three science papers down, one more math paper to go! i really really can't wait for exams to be over~ i shall slack like crazy today to reward myself for mugging like crazy for the past month or something (:

I shall list down the stuff i want to do after exams:

1) Go to IKEA with shermaine and the rest and eat meat balls, then watch the movie CLOUDY MEATBALLS :D

2) SHOOPPPING AND GET NEW CLOTHES! (my sister really brought everything -.-)

3) WATCH KOREAN DRAMAS :D:D:D:D

4) 15SLCOT OUTING <3

5) 303 outing!

6) 203 outing!

7) download more songs into my ipod!

8) watch more movies~!

9) TAIWAN GCP<3333

Okay, i think i'm done with my list of crap xD

(btw, i really dare to touch my math yet, because i'll realise that i've forgotten every single thing and start freaking out. haha (: i will sleep early today, like a pigggg, HURRAH(: )

<3shiyan

burningzest @ 2009-10-05T19:32:00

2009-10-05T11:54:36Z

Hello, i really wonder why i'm posting now, so random -.-

Anyway, studying for science has been a lot more fun and happy (: and i've been slacking and sleeping and studying at the same time so i feel really contented with my life. whee :D (wow note the alliterations!)

Life's been really quiet at home. i seriously can't wait for my parents to come home! but that will mean that my sis will be left alone in london for real. HMM. ahaha.

Anyway, I REALLY CAN"T WAIT FOR EXAMS TO BE OVER. like really really. i'm seriously not going to stupidly whine about doing badly already and er PLAY LIKE CRAZY after the EOYS :D it's such an awesome feelinggg!

____________________________

Have been reading the newspapers about the earthquakes and typhoons and i'm currently feeling really lucky to be living in singapore. Reading about people dying everyday is so scary, Like poof, the building falls while you're asleep and the next thing you know, you're dead. And here, we live a totally blissful life, not having to worry much about natural disasters or anything, just worrying about HOW WE'LL DO IN OUR EXAMS or whether we'll get our 'A's -.- felt really guilty that i was being so sad about doing badly for eoys when there were hundreds of people out there who had just lost their loved ones, or who had just lost their ability to walk or move forever. why are results so overrated in our society today D:

haish! so treasure our lives people, we're really lucky individuals! :D

i keep freaking out :/

2009-10-02T07:37:55Z

Is it just a sec three thing or is it just me? maybe it's both.

IH was expectedly mind boggling, but at least the essay was predictable. i can't believe i actually wrote 4 pages for essay omg. in like 50 min lol. my source base? HAH.

Moving on. I think i'm going to fail math. I'm not lying okay. Something about me went wrong during the exam. I kinda knew how to do, just that i had so much hesitation and qualms that in the end, i just didn't do it. and after the exam i realise i was thinking the right way just that i didn't put it down. OMG. seriously i'm going to fail. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i really don't understnad why i can never do well in a math exam when everytime i know how to do the questions!!! it's so irritating. and i'm seriously betting on paper 2.. if i don't do well for paper two i'm really dead. argh ):

SO i conclude that i have effectively screwed up all four papers that i've taken this week. none of them made me feel that at least it was OKAY. argh. i feel like i'm going back to sec one, when my eoys just pulled everything down. sec three feels so much like foreign year! big leap from a lot of thingssss, and i don't think i'm adapting very well :/ maybe i just need some time, and this year is just for me to get used to the new kind of syllabus. I PROMISE I'LL DO BETTER NEXT YEAR (: thank goodness grades in sec three don't really matter (:

After analysing why i've been screwing up so much, i have concluded that i haven't been very focused. i have been studying, but i don't think my brain is absorbing much. it's like going in and going out, and now much have been stored in my brain at all o.o and worse is that i haven't built a strong foundation at all this year. all the last min chionging for block tests doesn't do me much good huh.

So, four papers down, four more to go. I am so so so SO much more interested in studying science than anything else. so yea i think i'll be much happier studying for this week. :D

ohhhhh and i have also concluded that i want a math tutor!! it was so pissing last night when i totally couldn't solve anything and had no one to ask argh.

okay im off to get some sleeeeep (:

JIAYOU SHIYAN, you'll survive (((: